An Adventist Thanksgiving blessing

I know it's a little late, but I didn't have much internet access over Thanksgiving. Even though many of you reading this are not vegetarians (myself included), I thought this was pretty funny. I don't mind the fake turkey stuff, but it does not compare with the real thing. Mmmmmm, turkey.

Wild at Heart

Let me put in a big plug for the book Wild at Heart by John Eldredge. It is a book about men. It doesn't just tell you what a man is supposed to do, but rather what a man is. The desires in our heart were put there by God for a reason, and we need to understand them. I was given the book by my oldest brother and told that it had really impacted him and explained a lot of who he was. The first time I read it, it stirred up so much stuff in me that it could barely sink in. Since then I have tried to go through it more slowly and try to digest more of it. I have read/listened to it several times, and each time I do, it stirs something else in me. I just got the Field Manual that accompanies it, and am working through that to understand myself even more. Reading this book was actually an impetus in considering this change of career and discovering my passions. I am always amazed at how much I can learn about myself as a result of the reflection this book stimulates.

For all the guys out there, you really need to read this. It will shed so much light on the struggles and conflicts you likely are also feeling in your heart. And for the women, if you've ever wanted to understand men, this is an excellent place to start. He also has a book he wrote with his wife about women called Captivating, and it is also really great.

http://www.ransomedheart.com/
http://www.amazon.com/o/ASIN/0785268839/ref=pd_rvi_gw_1/002-2310866-0517614

I'm coming back!

I know, it's been a very long time since I blogged. Life has been largely consumed by boring school stuff even I wouldn't want to read about.

For the past month, I have also been doing a lot of thinking about my future and what I want to do. As I have reflected on what makes me come alive and what speaks to my heart, I have realized that counseling is really a passion for me. While I did love working as a chaplain, what I loved most was when I was able to be a "counselor" for the patient. So I have decided to drop out of my chaplaincy program and pursue counseling. There are many implications of this, especially financial, but I feel it is worth it to do that which I love. And I am at the point in my life that I can easily make this switch.

I am pretty certain that I will be attending Asbury Seminary in Orlando. I want to go to a school that provides an actual counseling degree, but has a theological background to it. Asbury is an excellent school that would provide this. All the many other draws I have to the Orlando area just make it an even better choice.

I likely won't be moving to Orlando immediately. I am going to take off Spring semester to work in Berrien Springs (my rent is much cheaper). I will probably move back towards the beginning of the summer (May-ish) and start classes either in the summer or fall. I am very excited about returning to all my friends, and am also excited about learning more about counseling. I believe it will be a much better fit for me.

Retreat, Reconnection

This weekend, I spent 24 hours in a silent, personal retreat with God. It was partly for a class, but also something I have been wanting to do for awhile. I went to a retreat center near Berrien where I could be alone with God in nature. It was an incredible experience and I am just now beginning to understand all that happened. A lot of what was communicated went straight from God to my heart, and it hasn't all registered in my head yet.

It provided me the opportunity to sort through some questions I had been wrestling with. Questions at the core of my relationship with God and my understanding of Him. I had no set agenda or plan, but it seems God did. He first made me confront the issues that have been tripping me up and getting in the way of my understanding of Him. Then He led me as I tried to understand what God's love is, and consequently who God is. It was only after realizing these things that I could address the direction He has for my life, which had begun to nag at me. But above all else, it gave me a chance to reconnect. 24 hours of just me and God. No cell phone and no internet (gasp!). I really feel much more connected to Him, and it's a connection I've been needing.

I would encourage any of you that are struggling with something, or simply sensing a disconnectedness from God to do the same. Isolate yourself with Him. Spend intentional quality time with Him. And at least for me, nature is always a great place for this. The spot in the picture is where I did a lot of praying. For all my complaining about Berrien Springs, the colors of the leaves changing is beautiful.

Love of God

I am in my Spiritual Formation class right now, and we were just talking about God’s love. We looked at Ephesians 3:14-19 which talks about knowing the love of Christ which “surpasses knowledge”. It’s a love that goes beyond head knowledge into actually experiencing it. I had never put together that passage with verse 20, which is one of my favorites. “Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us.” The incredible plans that God has for us is one of the ways that I experience His love. As I look at my life, I begin to see the incredible things God has planned for me. They are so far beyond my wildest dreams, and I know I’m just seeing the surface. I can’t help but to stand back in awe and amazement. Only a God who really loves me could do things so wonderful.